Concept of Space

I need to let this out through a stream of writing.

This will probably not make sense to you.

These past few weeks have been different.. I’m not sure if I like it or not. Lately, I’ve been uneasy like the sea because my mind is not in sync with my brain. I’ve lost sense of the only logic I know and my emotions are spilling out every time I tip over. I’ve dreamt of this a thousand times, but always with different possibilities. This was not foreseen. No.. it was not. It shifts every second, every day. Should I make up my mind? Should I give in? No, I will not. I have stuck to a system for years and it has kept me stable. But one false move and everything I’ve ever known is different again. This is a different change, nothing I’ve ever expected before. For three weeks, I have been empty. My mind has been empty. I cannot think, I cannot create. Wait.. I can think. I only think about the things I have seen. The shadow of the blinds and telephone lines. Then, I think about the noise.. the fan clicking through the night. I’ve scribbled this down a thousand times. They are imprinted forever in my mind. It never stuck with me till now. Why? I don’t know.. maybe I do. But you wouldn’t understand. Oh, no.. you never will. My mind is constant even though I may not even notice it. My mind is.. space. Undeniable space. Universal space. Space. I am floating through space. There is no time, there is no light. It is space. Free floating. No gravity. No levity. Space.

I’m trying to grab the concept of space and turn it into something visible.