Always Failing To Remember Why We Came, I Wonder Why We Came?

By This River is really my favorite song. I really miss the cover that Brazil's Johnathon Newby did. I believe Brazil's the reason why I've fallen in love with Brian Eno. By This River somehow holds memories for me. It's a song joy and a song of sadness. The time that I feel in love with this song, I was dating a great guy who truly made me happy. Happier than I ever was with anybody else. He had so many hopes and dreams. He was one of the only people that I could talk to without being judge. I would tell him everything. Also around this time, I watched the most beautiful meteor shower ever. The Perseid's. It was incredible. Possibly the happiest day of my life, other than seeing Yanni in concert. I don't know. I hadn't really paid so much attention to this song. But right now seemed like the best time to listen to it. It has been over a year of "change". I'm realizing that growing-up is hard for me. I'm scared of the future, but I believe it will turn out okay.

I want to travel. I want to travel as far as I can. I want to photograph everything I see. I want to know about people's past, present, and future. I want to talk to strangers and have a heart-to-heart conversation. I want to meet those people that could actually change the world.

Now I feel like playing By This River on piano. <333

P.S. Giuseppe Portelli also does a beautiful cover of this song. He also created sheet music for guitar.

I'm starting to feel the callus growing on the tip of my fingers again.

I am a musician.

Been writing a few sentences here and there, better than nothing.

I am a writer.

Art journal .002, a work in progress right now.

I am an artist.

My eyes seem to be hollow.

The little glisten of light is you.

Are you still, still breathing?

I cannot get myself to write.

I cannot get myself to paint.

I cannot get myself to speak.

He asks me, What do you think you are?

I replied... a mirror.
He nodded.
What are you?
Jazz music.
How so? he asked.
I cannot keep my thoughts straight.

I come to realize that even with friends I feel so... alone. I'm outcasted by everyone I know, and that's including family too. But at least I still have the comfort of my own room. Well, kind of. Ever since we moved into the new house, everything feels lonelier. I look outside the front window of the second floor and I can see him pass by. I regret moving here now. I didn't think he'd be around so much, but he is.

My thoughts are straying again.

Since I lost my pen drive, I barely realized that I've never saved my story anywhere else. So now, I have to start from scratch again. Fuck this shit. I hope someone I knew found it or I left it in my class. I need to ask my teacher when we go back to school from break. But I guess for now, I shall write another story. Who knows, maybe I'll end up posting it.

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Oh, fuck.
Where am I going with my life?

Falling

I think I'm falling for you.
But the only problem is...
I don't even know you.

Who are you?

: (

I need to...

Update this.
I really do.
Why can't I?
Love is lost.
I am just a child.
I will always be a child.
I can't find anyone anymore.
I don't know anyone.
I can't relate.
Outcasted.

Change

I don't update here anymore.
I only come to read certain blogs.
Find me.
Monklin.
Google it.
http://myspace.com/Monklin